Tuesday, May 1, 2012

1st of MAY

Omo omo omo (copying the korean movie tone), April 2012 is gone, for good....

exactly 20 days towards my Part 5 BDS @.@
previously, i would expect myself to know most answers already, and will be focus in my revision already, having completed all clinical requirements, final patient (+backup) treatments and write ups..

but now, looking at myself, despite what encouraging words that tutors or friends gave to final years,
i feel that im incompetent, im definitely better than what i was in the past few years but im not there yet, to be able to practise on my own, to be able to sit for finals with the knowledge and skills that i can take away from this school..

- i havent finished my crown requirements (everythign just seems to take longer and i seem to work so slow)
- i havent finished my final patient (what la with the sudden toothache which require RCT in at least 3 sclerosed canals, 4 if theres an MB2)
- i havent finished my final patient writeup (worse, havent started report for backup final)
- i cant answer alot of questions that i expect myself to know, those basic stuffs
- im not even sure if im really gonna sign up for finals (what's with the provisional sign up thing and the rumour heard from another student that no 5 units by 18th may, no sitting for finals *&^%$£")
- my revision going like snail, revised so much lesser compared to previous finals, WTH this is the most life changing one

looking at my seniors from last few years, i think they were so much greater when they were at this stage *sigh at myself*

20 days, how am i gonna finish what i need to do, i've no idea, but what choice do i hv but to carry on, despite the possible outcomes


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