让我很喜欢
很想念
很爱
很珍惜
and the list goes on :)
Monday, November 1, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Dear
Heavenly Father, You are the One who understands all my ups and downs and Your grace is sufficient for me
You're the best gift in my life, never will You leave me, never will You forsake me
p/s: my dear, may u find rest too <3
You're the best gift in my life, never will You leave me, never will You forsake me
p/s: my dear, may u find rest too <3
Monday, October 11, 2010
10.10.10
Dear You know who u r,
The 3 things i told u on 101010 uk time night, don't u ever forget, no matter what happen in the future, as they won't change..
From You know who i m
The 3 things i told u on 101010 uk time night, don't u ever forget, no matter what happen in the future, as they won't change..
From You know who i m
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
self control
Dear Self Control,
u've abandoned me for quite a while.. it's time for u to come back and control my brain, especially my heart
Regards,
M
u've abandoned me for quite a while.. it's time for u to come back and control my brain, especially my heart
Regards,
M
Monday, September 27, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
thank you
Followed laoma and copy-pasted the part where jiajia posted about me :) and heheh, im her blog stalker~~
"MELISSA，WANYUN，也叫毛毛
2010年2月13，在MANCHESTER，是我第一次见到她。她在隔壁桌，与001的所有JUNIORS一块，享用她们的点心。当时只是描了她一眼。说真的，影像并不深刻。直到14日那晚，就在她们所有JUNIORS离开前几个小时，再次看见她。或许刚睡醒吧！BLUR BLUR的，在她介绍自己完毕不到30秒，我竟然忘了她的大名。第二次，她只是冷冷的说，我们彼此是陌生人。满腔热情就让她一桶冷水直泼。对她影像至此，分开后也没再想起这个人，认定了她又是令一个与我擦肩而过的生命过客。只知道，FB ADD 了她，她COOL COOL 的，是老妈的好朋友，不是我的朋友类型。隔了好久好久，直到老妈从她的SKI TRIP回来，告诉我好多关于旅伴们的故事时，才再次听见关于她的些许故事。直到7月吧！得知会跟她一道旅行时，闪过脑海的第一个念头---会合不来吗？2010年8月20，相隔半年后再次见面，是在西班牙。才见面，就拿了人家的地图扇风(太热了)。得知那是她用那遮着炽热太阳的东东后，还真尴尬。感谢上帝让我有机会再次认识她。她，并不冷漠，热情得很，只是慢热。12天的旅行，让我对她有更深一层的认识。影像最深刻的，是第一晚她就对我的BUI KIA爱不释手。喜欢她的笑声，我听见后总会有着莫名的快乐。再来就是她的细心。她其实很窝心，只是不懂得如何表达。看在眼里，心里除了欣赏，还是欣赏。她常常把我不经意说的话记在心里。就好像，我喜欢什么，不喜欢什么，替我留意COINS。喜欢一早起来有她为我准备的咖啡，喜欢她的嘘寒问暖，至少对我来说是很贴心的。毛毛，一个认真但不失其单存的女生，一个值得我钦佩，疼爱的对象。"
Like the name she's given me - maomao, and like the pic she put up - my fav of our he2 zhao4 cos she looked so peaceful there and i looked like i adore her alot (my meimei said one) xDI'm not as nice as what she mentioned above, perhaps it's because she managed to bring out the best in me xDD
what can i say to her? 除了爱你还是爱你 <3<3<3
Saturday, September 18, 2010
just another reflection during the weekend
- went for a raya gathering by msd this morning as a minister came... good food, yummy, esp the lemang and kuah kacang...listened to his talk about 1 M'... someone asked, if so, why not abolish all the ch' school etc and oni have a keb' school... let me ask u, why dun u abolish the hak keistimewaan me'? then the whole nation will be equal and we don't have to feel scared and try to defend ourselves (sorry not intend to offend anyone but i think as long as we have different status and diff right, it's hard for us to be 100% united)
- met a few other scholars of the same sponsor and also one of the sponsor person in charge there, stil yet to meet the new guy who took over, hmm... somehow brought back the memories of pre-departure, what i expect to be / how i wish my student life can be and the reality now.. time to be more motivated and give my best for the final 2 years...
- met 2 freshers (same country, same course with me)... one jpa and one fama... one of them has parents over, asked alot of questions, well, they are worried, like most parents do... i feel old, they are so young and their life in uni has just started..
- din expect to see her everyday from the beginning, and din expect the impact of poison can be so deep... but guess i become more and more greedy, which is not good, should be grateful and contented, so wil try to be rational while stay poisoned... try to focus while stay poisoned... okeh, this wil be a motivation, to do well in my study.. actually she's not a poison, she is a good thing and a blessing in my life :)
- met a few other scholars of the same sponsor and also one of the sponsor person in charge there, stil yet to meet the new guy who took over, hmm... somehow brought back the memories of pre-departure, what i expect to be / how i wish my student life can be and the reality now.. time to be more motivated and give my best for the final 2 years...
- met 2 freshers (same country, same course with me)... one jpa and one fama... one of them has parents over, asked alot of questions, well, they are worried, like most parents do... i feel old, they are so young and their life in uni has just started..
- din expect to see her everyday from the beginning, and din expect the impact of poison can be so deep... but guess i become more and more greedy, which is not good, should be grateful and contented, so wil try to be rational while stay poisoned... try to focus while stay poisoned... okeh, this wil be a motivation, to do well in my study.. actually she's not a poison, she is a good thing and a blessing in my life :)
Friday, September 17, 2010
down-ness?
a very hard-to-be-explained concept..
there's nothing wrong with me.. or is there?
certain things never changed..
when can I carry out what I intend to?
when can I stop being shy and say out loud?
when can I be convinced that "I'm more than conqueror through Him (Jesus) who loved me" and live out the truth?
isit the environment or isit me?
ok, now i blame the pre-exam syndrome.. whatever...
p/s: can I go back to 19th August, enjoy, and then start my new term with fighting spirit? the answer is no, so life goes on.. there goes..
there's nothing wrong with me.. or is there?
certain things never changed..
when can I carry out what I intend to?
when can I stop being shy and say out loud?
when can I be convinced that "I'm more than conqueror through Him (Jesus) who loved me" and live out the truth?
isit the environment or isit me?
ok, now i blame the pre-exam syndrome.. whatever...
p/s: can I go back to 19th August, enjoy, and then start my new term with fighting spirit? the answer is no, so life goes on.. there goes..
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
Can I keep you?
Ever since a child, I’ve heard people saying that as u get older it gets harder to find true friend.. After I lived for more than 2 decades, I think it is true. So I truly appreciate friends that I can keep til today. Well, friends not as in just kenalan, but friends whom I wish to spend time with and share the good times and hard times with and friends whom I can kacau anytime I want without the feeling of awkwardness (well, of course if I know my friend is busy I wont go kacau)
Afta been through kindergarten, primary school, secondary school, college years, and now university, a lot of ppl came and left in my life. I guess the friends that really matter to me now can be counted with my 2 hands.
I suppose other than the rare few who still have important place in my heart, my most valuable friendships were found during my 2 years in college. Period (since I dedicate this post to you <3)
Who knows, by a very unexpected chance, I get to know u, and literally fell for u!(note: I’m not talking about BGF here) Who would hv thought that at such old age, I would be able to meet someone like u again! Thanks to another important friend whom I’ve oredi kept in my friendship bank xDD for being the medium of us both, or three (who called me ah yi)..
You: a very contrasting and confusing character, but nvm, if possible I can spend the rest of my life discovering u
Regret: was so blind when I first met u, to overlook u, and even after when we became friends on FB, to not fall for u (just because I think u r very different from me)
Grateful: Thank God for giving me a second chance to meet u and know u this time
Thanks ehem (u know who u r) for not overlooking u and thus be close to u and somehow brought us tgt
Thank you for:
- giving me a second chance (I know ur first impression towards me wasn’t that good either xD)
- make me laugh all the time ever since the first day I know u (well, now I know the one who called me ah yi was part of the contribution or tactics to make me fall for u)
- pampering me with care, love, sweet words (though I don’t believe all of them), time for bonding (even though u hv so many close friends to care for as well), songs and ur stories
- still nice to me even though there’s nothing I can do to repay ur kindness
- sth in you brought back some sweet childhood memories, hobbies and dreams in me (not gonna go in details here)
- being transparent
- be my sunshine after rain (due to a certain incident)
- being transparent
- be my sunshine after rain (due to a certain incident)
- etc etc etc
I’m not quite a straightforward/transparent person. So allow me to keep the rest in my heart/personal diary, that's if I manage to put them in words.
All in all, thank you for this bond that we are sharing. May God bless you and I shall always keep u in my prayers from this moment on.
Last but not least, can I keep you?
p/s: and i miss u already
p/s: and i miss u already
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
Houses of Parliament ; a walk in the rain (to b updated with more details)
1) Discovered in the London Planner for August 2010 that Houses of Parliament is having summer opening (and actually since a few months back it's been opened to public on saturdays). Walked past that place and Big Ben several time and was only able to take picture, wishing that I can enter as well, today the wish came true ;)
I've been thinking of going during one of these days but didnt due to rain or laziness. This morning, seeing that my available time is coming to an end before weekend arrives (which i dont wish to go as usually there will be lotsa ppl and alot of engineering work going on for the underground). So I woke up and made myself go to the site and bought the ticket online (well, since i'm not sure from the site if i can get it on the spot). The ticket is 9 pounds for student. My plan was to wait for lib to open to print the ticket and set off. But a few heart attack incidents happened:
- my clock is 15 min late (first time since i bought it >.<) so i was 15 min behind my plan
- in the midst of printing then only i realised that the tic should be printed no later than 24 hours before the event, oh well, that time i was at most 30-40 min before? but dun care, try my luck again
- i waited for the tube for so long to come >.< (well, perhaps just 10 min but since i'm late oredi) and the tic mentioned that i should be there 20 mins before, crap
So, at that point, I've already prepared for the worst, I'll go there and visit that place no matter what, even if I had to buy another tic, so I set off.....
Eventually when I reached, I was already 9 minutes late (according to my pass time) but they let me in without any difficulty when I told them i'm late, thank God (perhaps it's still early in the morning and not many ppl there yet)...and after all the security check, i was able to join the english tour without waiting for long, and there are only 15 of us, considered small, guess thats the benefit of being early and avoid peak hour
So here're a few not so tour-related things i would like to jot down:
- everything turned out to be so easy and smooth despite the heart attack before i reached there
- the met police and those in charge of visitors are friendly and helpful :)
- my guide sounded like the older lady in the movie julie and julia, the tone and the accent and even the look, hoho
- when she checked the tickets of a few ppl before me she asked them where they are from (a couple from italy and a lady from netherland and a few locals i suppose) but when she reached me and get the tic from me, she paused and just said thank you.. well im the only asian there and hmm isit because she's not sure if im a tourist or a bbc (hehe, syok sendiri) or isit because she's racist (erm, dun reli think so given that shes a guide)?
- i still dun understand british joke, there are a few occasions when the guide said sth, some of the british laughed or the british said something and the guide laughed while i didnt catch anything, blurred
- generally, the guide is clear and the history of the palace of westminster is interesting, gv me an urge to research on britains history, well, i hope i'll really do that
- i guess coming from a commonwealth country like malaysia helps me to understand abit easily of the parliament system here
- and i felt abit regret for not voting during the british election last year but then again, i dun reli know who to vote for in the first place
- i need a better camera for indoor (well not that i'm allowed to take a lot of pictures inside but this is not the first time this thought cross my mind)
- i'm glad that i know who andrew llyod webber is and actually a big fan of some of his products, heheh
- too bad that i didnt get the chance to visit the houses of parliament in my own country
that's it for now for those random thoughts above, now abit more on the visit:
- admission 14 pounds (but for student 9 pounds)
- tour takes about 75 minutes
- need to go through security as in airport (no liquids)
- not allowed to wear hat in as it is a palace
- a picture will be taken during the security and will be worn as entrance pass
- (im too lazy atm to talk more about my experience and what i learnt from the tour, so next time la i'll update)
2) after 2 weeks of receiving a bike from F, i finally got the semangat to go ride it, before that either it's because it rained alot (like almost everyday) or i'm plain lazy...then when i was at the front door i didnt manage to get the bike through the first door (due to the unique double door system of my hall), urgh, so i put it back.. tmr i shall try another way, this time i shall try putting the back in first... it definitely can go through without opening 2 doors as ive seen F doing it before, urggghhh
since i couldnt do what i planned to do i still went out to survey areas that are suitable for my to practise cycling (since i hvnt cycle in ages and im a beginner who can hardly cycle in a straight line from what i rmb and who need a big space to turn corner >.<).. but im determined to learn and improve, otherwise it will be a regret to not cycle at all while im in london, a place that is much suitable for cycling and a time when cycling has become more popular, even the barclay cycle scheme has been implemented now; and i know if i dun do it now, next time i go back i wont be able to cycle in my life anymore..
after surveying i ended up jogging in a park, 2 rounds and it started to rain.. but i took my own sweet time and walked home since i cant run all the way home and will get wet anyway.. and it's actually nice to run in the rain xDD just dun like it when my glasses got wet
I've been thinking of going during one of these days but didnt due to rain or laziness. This morning, seeing that my available time is coming to an end before weekend arrives (which i dont wish to go as usually there will be lotsa ppl and alot of engineering work going on for the underground). So I woke up and made myself go to the site and bought the ticket online (well, since i'm not sure from the site if i can get it on the spot). The ticket is 9 pounds for student. My plan was to wait for lib to open to print the ticket and set off. But a few heart attack incidents happened:
- my clock is 15 min late (first time since i bought it >.<) so i was 15 min behind my plan
- in the midst of printing then only i realised that the tic should be printed no later than 24 hours before the event, oh well, that time i was at most 30-40 min before? but dun care, try my luck again
- i waited for the tube for so long to come >.< (well, perhaps just 10 min but since i'm late oredi) and the tic mentioned that i should be there 20 mins before, crap
So, at that point, I've already prepared for the worst, I'll go there and visit that place no matter what, even if I had to buy another tic, so I set off.....
Eventually when I reached, I was already 9 minutes late (according to my pass time) but they let me in without any difficulty when I told them i'm late, thank God (perhaps it's still early in the morning and not many ppl there yet)...and after all the security check, i was able to join the english tour without waiting for long, and there are only 15 of us, considered small, guess thats the benefit of being early and avoid peak hour
So here're a few not so tour-related things i would like to jot down:
- everything turned out to be so easy and smooth despite the heart attack before i reached there
- the met police and those in charge of visitors are friendly and helpful :)
- my guide sounded like the older lady in the movie julie and julia, the tone and the accent and even the look, hoho
- when she checked the tickets of a few ppl before me she asked them where they are from (a couple from italy and a lady from netherland and a few locals i suppose) but when she reached me and get the tic from me, she paused and just said thank you.. well im the only asian there and hmm isit because she's not sure if im a tourist or a bbc (hehe, syok sendiri) or isit because she's racist (erm, dun reli think so given that shes a guide)?
- i still dun understand british joke, there are a few occasions when the guide said sth, some of the british laughed or the british said something and the guide laughed while i didnt catch anything, blurred
- generally, the guide is clear and the history of the palace of westminster is interesting, gv me an urge to research on britains history, well, i hope i'll really do that
- i guess coming from a commonwealth country like malaysia helps me to understand abit easily of the parliament system here
- and i felt abit regret for not voting during the british election last year but then again, i dun reli know who to vote for in the first place
- i need a better camera for indoor (well not that i'm allowed to take a lot of pictures inside but this is not the first time this thought cross my mind)
- i'm glad that i know who andrew llyod webber is and actually a big fan of some of his products, heheh
- too bad that i didnt get the chance to visit the houses of parliament in my own country
that's it for now for those random thoughts above, now abit more on the visit:
- admission 14 pounds (but for student 9 pounds)
- tour takes about 75 minutes
- need to go through security as in airport (no liquids)
- not allowed to wear hat in as it is a palace
- a picture will be taken during the security and will be worn as entrance pass
- (im too lazy atm to talk more about my experience and what i learnt from the tour, so next time la i'll update)
2) after 2 weeks of receiving a bike from F, i finally got the semangat to go ride it, before that either it's because it rained alot (like almost everyday) or i'm plain lazy...then when i was at the front door i didnt manage to get the bike through the first door (due to the unique double door system of my hall), urgh, so i put it back.. tmr i shall try another way, this time i shall try putting the back in first... it definitely can go through without opening 2 doors as ive seen F doing it before, urggghhh
since i couldnt do what i planned to do i still went out to survey areas that are suitable for my to practise cycling (since i hvnt cycle in ages and im a beginner who can hardly cycle in a straight line from what i rmb and who need a big space to turn corner >.<).. but im determined to learn and improve, otherwise it will be a regret to not cycle at all while im in london, a place that is much suitable for cycling and a time when cycling has become more popular, even the barclay cycle scheme has been implemented now; and i know if i dun do it now, next time i go back i wont be able to cycle in my life anymore..
after surveying i ended up jogging in a park, 2 rounds and it started to rain.. but i took my own sweet time and walked home since i cant run all the way home and will get wet anyway.. and it's actually nice to run in the rain xDD just dun like it when my glasses got wet
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
rainy talks
10.08.2010 (tue) morn, 雨后天晴
1) Heard an unexpected knock on the door, it was R, my flatmate since I moved into my new flat. A germany exchange student. He’s leaving for home today. He left some stuffs in the kitchen in case I would like to have any of them. I was touched. Didn’t expect him to even think of leaving them for me (just slightly more than a stranger to him) before throwing away. So different from my immediate neighbor who is also a germany exchange student (also quite frenly but cos I suspect he used my cutlery and plate twice and left them unwashed till the day he left @.@).
Thank you, R, and I’ll remember you. Although we only have a short time living under the same roof, if only I can know u longer. Here are a few things to remember:
- I remember the first time I walked pass ur room when u just arrived. U walked out of ur door and introduced urself. The second time I was accompanying a friend to find another friend in ur flat. U saw me and came out to introduce urself again (not remembering u did that before). Haha. Third time afta I moved in. u saw me in the kitchen. U were topless that time but u walked out again and put on a shirt. 4th time in the kitchen again. I was cooking. U asked me if it’s ok for u to cook there as well, so cute. And u even wipe down the stove afta using them, a good househusband next time xD and u rmb now that im a dental student. And u didn’t introduce urself again xDD
I’ll definitely think of u again when I visit germany. Or when I see your look alike in church. Wish u the very best in life.
And again, I hate myself, why do I always hv to wait for ppl to be nice to me first then only I regret for not being able to do anything for them in return?
2) Called aunty and had a nice long chat with her. She’s turning 70 next year. Omg. Lord pls dun take her away from me yet and gv me time to spend a better life with her when I graduate next time. Aunty said I'm ‘lao shi ren’, so guy who is like this suits me better. Oh dear.
3) Yesterday was by far the most fruitful day since my hols started. Went to L’s for sock puppet making. Made fren with H, a Korean, and saw her Korean housemate for the first time, H2. both are so typical Korean look with single eyelid.
So hilarious, the process of designing sock puppets, laughed non stop. Was late for my optician appt when i was on my way and called to reschedule.(yes, not good with time management at all, see what hols has got me into, laziness and nonpunctuality) Eventually went there and got myself new prescription and a pair of contact lens for trial. The lens are good, so comfy wearing them and so clear. But so hard to remove them as well, scared the hell off me.
Optician appointment: why both who checked on me (the eye test and contact lens test) are asians (like those in my class) ?? what happen to angmoh?
Bad news, both sides increase and was adviced to update my glasses @.@ that bad??? The last 2 summers din increase lei.. Guess should stop abusing my eyes with series >.<
Evening (drizzling, AGAIN)
1) went to this chinese shop to buy some bihun.. Had noticed this kinda-cute counter guy a couple of times and today he finally talked to me. Asked me which of the bihun taste nicer (i noticed too they have the other brand i used to buy from chinatown last time in store recently). well, honestly i duno but because of the country of production so I trusted one more than the other but of cos i din say so, din reli cross my mind due to the unexpected conversation. And, do I really look so Chinese that he spontaneously speak mandarine to me assuming i know?
2) talked to this other flatmate, perhaps the only one left now just now.. afraid that i mixed up and took his plates.. well, why do i hv to initiate a conversation after we've seen each other a couple of times?
1) Heard an unexpected knock on the door, it was R, my flatmate since I moved into my new flat. A germany exchange student. He’s leaving for home today. He left some stuffs in the kitchen in case I would like to have any of them. I was touched. Didn’t expect him to even think of leaving them for me (just slightly more than a stranger to him) before throwing away. So different from my immediate neighbor who is also a germany exchange student (also quite frenly but cos I suspect he used my cutlery and plate twice and left them unwashed till the day he left @.@).
Thank you, R, and I’ll remember you. Although we only have a short time living under the same roof, if only I can know u longer. Here are a few things to remember:
- I remember the first time I walked pass ur room when u just arrived. U walked out of ur door and introduced urself. The second time I was accompanying a friend to find another friend in ur flat. U saw me and came out to introduce urself again (not remembering u did that before). Haha. Third time afta I moved in. u saw me in the kitchen. U were topless that time but u walked out again and put on a shirt. 4th time in the kitchen again. I was cooking. U asked me if it’s ok for u to cook there as well, so cute. And u even wipe down the stove afta using them, a good househusband next time xD and u rmb now that im a dental student. And u didn’t introduce urself again xDD
I’ll definitely think of u again when I visit germany. Or when I see your look alike in church. Wish u the very best in life.
And again, I hate myself, why do I always hv to wait for ppl to be nice to me first then only I regret for not being able to do anything for them in return?
2) Called aunty and had a nice long chat with her. She’s turning 70 next year. Omg. Lord pls dun take her away from me yet and gv me time to spend a better life with her when I graduate next time. Aunty said I'm ‘lao shi ren’, so guy who is like this suits me better. Oh dear.
3) Yesterday was by far the most fruitful day since my hols started. Went to L’s for sock puppet making. Made fren with H, a Korean, and saw her Korean housemate for the first time, H2. both are so typical Korean look with single eyelid.
So hilarious, the process of designing sock puppets, laughed non stop. Was late for my optician appt when i was on my way and called to reschedule.(yes, not good with time management at all, see what hols has got me into, laziness and nonpunctuality) Eventually went there and got myself new prescription and a pair of contact lens for trial. The lens are good, so comfy wearing them and so clear. But so hard to remove them as well, scared the hell off me.
Optician appointment: why both who checked on me (the eye test and contact lens test) are asians (like those in my class) ?? what happen to angmoh?
Bad news, both sides increase and was adviced to update my glasses @.@ that bad??? The last 2 summers din increase lei.. Guess should stop abusing my eyes with series >.<
Evening (drizzling, AGAIN)
1) went to this chinese shop to buy some bihun.. Had noticed this kinda-cute counter guy a couple of times and today he finally talked to me. Asked me which of the bihun taste nicer (i noticed too they have the other brand i used to buy from chinatown last time in store recently). well, honestly i duno but because of the country of production so I trusted one more than the other but of cos i din say so, din reli cross my mind due to the unexpected conversation. And, do I really look so Chinese that he spontaneously speak mandarine to me assuming i know?
2) talked to this other flatmate, perhaps the only one left now just now.. afraid that i mixed up and took his plates.. well, why do i hv to initiate a conversation after we've seen each other a couple of times?
再见
歌名 ：你现在好么？
歌词：
[ti:你现在好吗]
[ar:傅斯彦]
[al:你现在好吗]
[by:习]
你现在好吗
作词:郑暖译作曲:傅霖
编曲:郑暖译
吉他:陈辉权
演唱:傅斯彦
凌晨两点了还守在电话旁
这是你离开我的第二天
我和你一样都在爱情里受过伤
夏天也会感到心寒
所以你决定离开这里
去寻找你要的港湾
别担心如果没有你要的
我等着你
你现在好吗我想你了啊
外面世界精彩又无奈要保重自己啊
你现在好吗你还记得吗
有个傻瓜会在电话的另一边
陪你到永远
所以你决定离开这里
去寻找你要的港湾
别担心如果没有你要的
我等着你
你现在好吗我想你了啊
外面世界精彩又无奈要保重自己啊
你现在好吗你还记得吗
有个傻瓜会在电话的另一边
陪你到永远
你现在好吗我想你了啊
外面世界精彩又无奈要保重自己啊
你现在好吗你还记得吗
有个傻瓜会在电话的另一边
陪你到永远
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